Forgive My First Post.

hello the world......

guwahati is such a cool place to be in . i mean there are some really cool people or should i say really "high" people . i was getting really bored so i went out for walk and on my way i met this really curious guy . i had such a weird conversation with him about all kinds off shit . and here are some of his preaching .

did you know that some people are erm.. okay maybe my expressive skills are really bad so i'll just tell you a story....


"Ram" a simple enough name for our protagonist . so now "Ram" is like you and me but he isnt you and me coz if he was then there would be no you and me but "Ram" . so heres the thing "Ram" wants to be some one although he already is some one but doesn't want to be someone in particular just a person who er.. is noticed by other people who has friends and is popular . now this want is like and not like an economic want .as in he is willing to work towards achieving it but it doesn't serve any economic purpose but it may indirectly. so even though he does think about the monetary aspect of things, well thats really not what he wants but getting it, wouldn't be a problem as such . now coming back to the main theme "Ram" wants to be popular, he knows how to become popular as in he has a plan to do so . its like i have to suck up to these people break my ties with those people and bitch about the rest . but even though he wants all this he wants to keep it real coz he knows that if he does suck up, people will comment on this, hampering his popularity later by creating a ceiling limit and also creating a weak point which "the others" WILL take advantage off. so heres the conflict inside him ...
the desire to be popular but he wants to keep it real,sucking up has a lot of dis advantages but hes too stupid to use any other way, he is a wannabe but doesn't wannabe anybody but himself, so he has a plan but following would make him look like a suck up only, thus he's reached a dead end a point where there are so many factors that keep contradicting each other that his only option is to start anew but he cant do that now, i mean he's in so deep already how can he just break away throw away all that he has worked for for so long as if it never was . hence he reaches a dead end but his refusal to walk out the way he came makes it a wall built around him
suffocating him and clouding his mind till he eventually becomes another brick in the wall .